Hello everyone! I have definitely been neglecting my blog and I apologize. I went through a little funk where I felt like my writing was horrible and all over the place. But I realize I don’t have to be a best selling author to write about my life. Which has changed quite a bit since the last time I updated you all. My last post was part three of my life story, written in June of 2019. From there I spent the next few months continuing to work hard on my mental health. Going to therapy, filling out workbooks, and finding new ways to cope. I did a lot of walking those few months. I loved starting my day outside, but then it started to get colder and I became a wimp, haha.
In November I decided I was finally ready to join the workforce again. I had been without a job for 7 months working hard and I felt like I was in a really good place to go back. I was always one of those people who thought I needed to get a fancy degree and make tons of money to be happy. Boy is that a [bleeping] lie. I always cared about what others thought of me and I wanted to impress people. Over those 7 months of working on myself I FINALLY started to not give a flying [bleep] about other peoples opinions. I started searching for jobs that I thought sounded fun, and I got a good one. I get to jam out and make coffee all day long, I love it there and we all have a blast working. I think this is the first job where I don’t dread going and that’s such a great feeling!
My mental health is very good right now. Yeah, I still have days where I am a little moody. But I have managed to get rid of my suicidal thoughts and now if I get in some sort of funk, I am really good at pulling myself out of it. Where as before I would let it ruin my whole day, then it would turn into a week, then months, etc. I am super proud of where I am at in my life right now. I’m finally happy, I’m financially stable, and my marriage is awesome. The moment I started to put myself first, seriously EVERYTHING just fell into place. Also please know that I am by no means bragging. If you have followed my journey from the beginning or have known me my whole life, I know you have been rooting for me. If your just reading this blog for the first time, read some of my previous posts, or visit my Instagram (@rebuildingcourtney). I have worked hard to get where I am today.
I didn’t really make any new years resolutions because, well they never stick. I do want to focus more on my physical health and I have lost 13 pounds so far this year, so I am very happy with that! I am so excited to see what 2020 has in store for me. I really just want to continue working on myself, live a simple life, save money, and maybe take a trip somewhere. But we will see. I am so happy to be back to blogging and I hope you are all excited as well. I hope you guys have a fantastic week, and I hope your 2020 is full of good health and happiness!