Good Evening everyone and happy Monday. Lets talk medication. I have been on Lexapro for depression and anxiety for one week so far. Can I just say that I was TERRIFIED to start a new medication. I have never been on any medication before besides birth control. So taking a pill that reacts with chemicals in your brain was scary. I visited a psychiatrist to get evaluated (to go on meds) and she had asked me if I had ever had a panic attack. I replied no, I don’t think I have. Well I did that night!!
Bed time came around and I had to take the pill. I was laying in bed rolling it around in my hand and I began to cry. My husband had asked me what was wrong, because hours before I was ecstatic about being on medication. I was willing to do whatever it took to feel better. But when the time came to actually take it, I was scared.
I was also disappointed in myself that it had come to this point. I wanted to believe I could do it on my own, but after trying for a couple years it just didn’t happen. About a half hour passed by and I finally took the first pill. I laid in bed and started to breathe heavily and I was giving myself chest pains. I was completely freaking out. I got out of bed and was pacing around the house like a psycho. After about another half hour I pulled myself together, took a few deep breaths, and went to sleep. I am experiencing a few side effects including nausea and insomnia. My doctor said I was going to want to quit within the first two weeks, but I should be able to tough it out. Since I had never been on any medication before, the first week we started with a half a dose. This week I am upping it to the full dose amount and once again, I am scared. I have been so tired the last week, but I will say that I feel like I am not as emotional as I once was, so I think we are getting somewhere. Let me know if you take any medication and if you think it helped! Thank you for reading tonight, until next blog 🙂